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dear you,

i don't know why i miss you.
you were loud, dirty, rebellious.

you smelled of fast-food and gasoline.

you never turned off the lights.
your cries, shrieks, awakened me in the night.

i'm with someone else now.
someone who's quieter, cleaner, safer.
someone who plans and organizes.
someone who's educated and respected.
someone who is comfortable and polite.

i know i should be happy 

to be away from you... but i'm not.

all i want is to be back with you,

to surround myself in your presence.

i never should've fallen for you, chicago.

sincerely,

shae